what's with these people? you swallow your pride..come up to them and say hi as if nothing happened (to which something DID happen) and all you get is a cold stare?!

was she too ashamed? she wouldn't even goddamn look at me..as if i wasn't there..what the hell was that all about? i was expecting her to be glad that we finally would talk..i was wrong..tangina..akala ko kupal ako..pero kupal pala sya..not that i dont know na kupal ako before pa..

i guess she was used to having people confront and argue with her when things get messed up..but this time, i didnt..and she knew very well that i should have..

sabi nga nila..she just proved na magkatulad sila ng nanay niya..

this has been hell week for me..not because i had so much to do but because i had too little to do..nothing keeps me occupied..and that leaves me thinking about him when i dont want to..i end up with a pack of yosi..if it wasnt for my room8..who always wants to go sa videoke..i would be very depressed by now..if it wasnt for my super kulit na roomies..i wouldnt know how to deal with this..

i hope things get better soon..i've screwed up again..ang tanga ko..

god..i cant believe its been almost two months since i last visited this site...fotten too busy with a lot of things lately..i dont know where to start making kwento..

well..there's only one hot issue going on and im pretty sure that most of the people involved here are already tired talking about it already..the thing is..

THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME...

i tried to keep my mouth shut about this whole sick situation..i tried to understand..tried to shake myself off from total shock..but things are getting from bad to worse..

anyway,enough about that..i dont wanna be starting off with bad news after a long time now, would i?

okay, so it's term break..im having the best days of my life..spent mostly under my covers..snoring my heart out to an audience of pillows and sheets..hahaha! anyway, im really enjoying my stay at home..at least now im sleeping with fluffy pillows..soft cushioned bed..unlike those i have back at the dorm..my mom always..and i mean always forget that she has to buy a mattress for me..whew..but that's okay..im also having the best days with my dorm girls..spent eating balut and pugo at midnight and celebrating with yellow cab pizza and two bottles of coke..we seem pathetic for enjoying these simple pleasures in life..but infact we're not..hahaha!oh yes..beneath these silly things lies the most important thing in my life..

F R I E N D S H I P

it's the conversations that nothing can ever place any value..what we share with each other and the bond that we male are simply priceless..my dorm girls are really close to my heart..

lets see what i can squeeze out of my head about the past two months:

- had body spa with my mom..was bleached..my entire body is literally peeling and my underarms are horrifying..the ugliest ive seen myself in year..last time was when i had chicken pox for crying out loud..
- went to manila zoo and bay walk with ate din and jake
- walked from manila zoo to bay walk..talk about walking..whew..
- went to this garahe place in malate..chill out place..beer..yosi..billiards..videoke..was with ate din, jap, mike small and mike big, lao, mich, emer..and another guy but i cant remember his name..played billiard with the guys..hahaha..sang three songs to the whole place..but people we're applauding..feeler..hehe..
- gone from broke to completely broke
- went to pier1 and gotten so pissed we'll never go there again
- smoking became very addictive..chain smoke..cant get through one day without my trusty yosi at utility room accompanied by long hilarious talks with ate din and chinky..
- went to temple and enjoyed the entire night
- went to videoke a lot
- watched movies with roomates
- my parents accused me of using drugs because of some stupid text message my mom read in my fone.. cried a lot because of that ha..
- finals week: felt tired beyond the word tired

i dont know if i have forgotten some things..but ah..i guess that's just about it..except for now im anticipating for my nephew's baptism..that would be on sunday..

my life here is sleep and internet..i stay up until 3am chatting with my good ol' buddies..then i sleep..and wake up past 4pm..then i eat..then i go online again..what an interesting life i have...

my nephew though is adding a little more spice in my life..okay.. a lot of spice..he's the apple of my eye...the way he throws up on my shirt makes him the most adorable baby..im not sarcastic..i love this baby, he's the source of my energy..and my hapiness..he has brought a lot of smiles and laughters..its like like looking at him everything just goes away in an instant and all i see is this cute angel..i sing him lullubies so he could sleep..although my arms ache like hell when i carry him..he's a big 3 month old baby..but i love him..aww..

actually, the interesting part is the one im trying not to talk about..u ask why?...its too scandalous..kaya nga interesting eh..hahaha..but its a sensitive issue to be talked publicly..i value privacy..

i gotta go now..
ciao..